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"Search in vain for so long..... full of empty hopes.... Lossing of direction... what I really want...."

Stress Reduction Day

Today no monday blue for me! haha.. becos I had 2 hours of class, then went my friend's house to "dry swim" hahaha quite a beginner lar.. then hor today first time played with Money lor... haha.. ok I lost $5.70! shit! haha but at least got HU few times.. cos hor.. the last time I played, did nt even won once lor.. for the eentire 6 hrs session.. lol anyway is kinda releasing of stress la. hahaha.. for today only.. tml wed etc will stay back for projects liao.. btw the fren's house got one kid so cute sia! hahaha.. adorable.. enjoyed teasing him.. lol then da pao thail chick cutlet rice to my fren's house for lunch, nt bad, lot of chickens, v generous lor.. $3 only.. nt bad.. haha ok then played till 4plus... then rched home decided to go for my short run lor.. well I guess, when I;m stressed or wat.. i tend to wan to run, cos really can make me think.. deep thoughts.... then can sort things out lor........ Hmmm...... Always fan over tat matter! Sianz......

Interactive Business Skills

I just simply hate and love this module.. contradicting isnt it? first of all.. the hate part is that, It involves ONE to ONE with tutor, tutor is your client, and we are behalf of a company selling product to her lor.. then have to follow alot steps n skills to convince the "client" to buy our product... v tedious, alot of preparation, from doing of name card to researching to product, worrying abt tone, manner, body gestures, eye contact, n DRESSING.. Dressing also the main thing.. Blazer? Skirt? Pants? blouse? cos factors will be taken into the grading lor.. stress hor isnt it? is like stressing over the main sales call thing, yet got to worry abt those small smal issues.. but no choice.. well this module got 2 parts. first is data gathering, my tutor is module leader thus equal to SIAO ON type.. other tutors gve each student 10mins will do.. if used lesser time also nvm.. but my tis tutor, gives each student 15mins n expect u to FUlly utilise it lor.. I remembered I used only 9mins.. and she was like "Nope, not long enuff"" u still got time.. so ask more Questions.. " oh ya .. the data gathering for part 1 basically we have to ask our "client" about her needs for the product etc... then part 2 then we have to prepare the sales contract and quotations plus benefits of the products to convince her to sign lor.. Chim rgt? then my part 2 Sales call is next friday lor.. v freaked out, cos today my tutor gave us individually feedback lor abt our part 1 de, I did nt do well C+ only ! huh expected , cos I missed up the reflection part, like confirm with her she wans hw many quanity... got to work harder for part 2 liao lor.. sianz. and my tutor admitted tat she is a merticulous person, meaning v demanding n fussy person.. wan perfection.. she said she can spot students who do not put in lot of effort lor.. Suai.. kena her as my tutor.. hahahaha

Oh the only thing I like this module is becos, it really train your courage lor.. imagine me toking to a tutor/client tat so demanding lor.. furthermore tutor is making thing difficult for us, she said she purposely does tat, to test our skills..! haha.. another thing is tat.. it will be quite useful for us in the future ba.. hahaha

Ok enuff of my nagging liao... lots of things to do next week...

Fish Spa >>~~~>'

I went to Qian Hu fish farm for our project last month... and tried out the legendary fish spa.. now then update becos I jus received couple of pics tat my fren took for us... whereby we put our feets into a pool of fishes, for them to nibble on our dead skins... well the first time i put my feet in.. is so ticklish lor.. v scary at first.. then I told myself, since I pay $10 for 30mins liao then I should make full use of it, basically they have 2 pools lor.. one with small fishes which I went tat pool lor.. the other is v large fishes.. ok is nt v large just the size of palm lar.. but hor.. when i tried putting into the pool, OMG! They CHIONG AH! to bite yr feet lor.. I dun dare to put le.. like some big fish biting yr toes off.. hahaha.. OK.. the fren with me soaked de, hahaha kp pinching me n kp screaming lor.. cos she too afraid liao hahaaha... Well after the soaking, i guess the feets are smoother? nt sure is it real or imagine de lar.. hahaha.. well But I gues is worth it lor.. heard that besides nibble away dead skins, the fishes can help cure feet dieases lor. (PS:I dun have huh). haha....

Blessed

Just now was walking ard Bukit Panjang Plaza, happened to walk passed Bata shoe shop, wat captured my attention was tat, there was this ger who sat on wheel chair, with her mum trying to assist her to try on those shoes... her mum was having difficulty to put the shoe on her feet, the wheel chair bounded ger was very reluctant and dejected fr her expression..

It suddenly hit me that how blessed I am.. though I often complain and displeased of my looks etc.. but at least I;m healthy and able to move ard.... So do not take for granted the simplicity of basic functionality we have. Some where in this world, there is a bunch of people who yearn for just tat.

Anyway today woke up 6plus as class starts at 8am.. haiz.. v jia liat.. difficult to wake up.. ok serve me rgt, 8am class was I chosen myself de, cos the greed of gg home early is there lor.. hahaha.. well the tutor and the module just sux! the module is very cruel.. expose us to the ugly side of ppl, for e.g. discrimination, war n preduice.. haiz.. I listened till almost falling alsp lor.. the tutor also v KNS de lar.. haha... After that another class, which is much better de.. haha Human commmunicaiton, more logic n positive.. lol.. hmm teammates also v funny .. then after tat went clementi central to have lunch with my frens... Ok tml is friday liao! yipee.. wkends are here once again!!! =)

Mounting up

Haiz.. As the title suggested! yes, stress is accelerating.. lots of projects deadlines coming near, this time round the tutor is strict and demanding, one module's teammates cannot make it.. haiz worried tat they wun do their part... and also worried tutor wun gve us good grades and tat there are really endless things to do lor.. Arh!!!!!! HElp!!!!!! I;m so vexed! haiz...... if projects dun do well, then exams might be v risky liao, cos projects wun be helping us up! and also tis time round the modules are so tough! I dun wan to do anything!! just wan to hide myself from the world! haizzzzz SIANzation. Aug here I come!

Things are just not smooth...
Be there for me will u?

MC

As of my previous post, today I was on MC lor.. although can slp later v shiok, but quite bored, esp when u koe yr frens in sch studying... like miss up something like tat... ok anyway today woke up, then received a call fr my dad saying that the Driver, she coming to see me and also pass me the medical fee lor.. my aunt went down to void deck with me to see the person... she was v sincere and can see she v guilty.. gave me brand essence also... Although alot of frens told me I should make a police report, but, I guess since I can walk, nt serious, I should just let it go... cos she also v young lor.. haha.. then carol just left my home, she came to visit me and also have dinner lor.. well is really grateful to koe this best fren lor... well words just cant describe how I feel to have her as my buddy............ : )

Ok just nw was changing the plaster dressing.. eeek like so pain like tat.. when applying antiseptic cream still kind sting sting pain.. hahaha no scar plz! haha

tml onwards stepping into war zone le... all the way till exams liao.. which is Aug le.. v busy... projects submissions, presentations and exams!!!!! all the way le...

I need my doze of chicken essense le!!!!!!!!

Btw thanks frens for the concerns.. well becos of this incident, I koe tat, i have lot of frens who aare very concern for me.. heez..touchy touchy.....

SIgning off....